March 31, 2006, early in the morning - then left for Shenzhen, overcast Chen Chen, as journalists feel. Mother, is the world's most cordial title, and HIV mothers, so that this kind have too much misery and heavy.
The 3:00 pm before the close, Yi Zike Office of the door was open, a 30-year-old about the young woman go in, keep her Mawei Bian, wearing a black sweater, jeans, waist of a red jacket. She saw Ping Zhuren on a series of regret: cold on the car, or have to. Feng Zhuren to us: This is if the Philippines , this is a magazine reporter, you Liaoba.
Ai Zike little office, but placed a three-Taiwan office, Fengzhu Ren and his two subordinates busy with their work, and if I talk on the Philippines in the open to the environment. I am a little surprised if the Philippines so undefended, but then they feel all the people here is like if an old friend of the Philippines.
Unexpected nightmare
Remarks from the children began. If the Philippine 3-year-old son, lively and lovely, was to attend kindergarten this year, but due to financial difficulties, to be deferred to the next year.
Mother of a woman to be a happy thing, if the Philippines, this happiness is too short, and to follow the nightmare is too heavy.
June 2003, if the Philippines gave birth to a son-strong, specifically from the mother drive home from her serve. At that time, she and her husband's business has finally embarked on the right track. Hydergine Takako business smoothly and, if the Philippine hearts overflow with happiness. Her mother also said her daughter is hard for so many years, finally Aochu the head. However, on my son is only 15 days of happiness. Recalled the events of the past, if the Philippine Zhibu Zhu to tears.
Half a month after childbirth, obstetrics and Municipal CDC doctors found her house, and asked her post-natal care of the child's situation and then told the couple the two together to CDC, doctors said only enough to do post-natal check . The CDC, the doctor clearly told if the Philippines and her husband, they are infected with HIV. May be threatened by sudden disaster Meng, not what they feel, Mangmang Ran according to the doctors told in a confidential register of members of the signed words. However, take the road home, in the minds of the AIDS Cars impression gradually clear up, fear, sadness and suspicion, of the aggrieved with Chung. If the Philippine tears Chima husband, a husband to have an excuse not to. I do not know how long a noisy, if the Philippines was his effort was in the depletion, as standing there in tears. 1 cling to her husband, Liang Kouzi on the street in Renlairenwang Baotoutongku.
Son,
And your mother can not return to familiar with the family, his elderly mother is humming the old Lullaby to coax his son to sleep, if the Philippine Zhibu Zhu and tears along the face to slide down. Porphyrin a bad mother, asked her why good cry, saying that confinement can not cry, cry easily broken bodies and milk. If the mother's concern for the Philippines no longer Kongzhibuzhu, a son and four up. Tears of sorrow to resolve some, if truthfully told the Philippine mothers to their own circumstances. Infant son is in no knowledge of and the sound asleep, if the Philippine watching his son sweet Xiaolian: Sorry, son, after her mother can no longer give you a breastfeeding. If the Philippines in the eyes of her mother, on AIDS Equivalent to death, her daughter Chouqi holding up: The children, how can you so Mingku ah!
Philippine if the milk is adequate, less than half a day on Guzhang a formidable, but not feeding her son to eat and had to throw away out, the milky white milk a Xiaowan - Xiaowan and into the pond, if not also the tears again and again Gunla down. Thanks to the son of weaning is not difficult, several crying, the children quickly adapted to the bottle, if the Philippine grief to the hearts of little consolation.
If the Philippines know that the risk of HIV and peacetime-milk powder for children, Chong Liang, Huanxi diapers, she is very carefully for fear spread to his son. July 2004, after inspections found her immunity is very low, often skin pain, Tuitong, doctors said she had been in a period of morbidity, drug treatment should be hastened. And almost one year old son, everywhere in the room to climb, if the Philippine nervous all day, worried that her son not to engage in things hard caught breaking the skin, and the doors have been in contact occurred inadvertently transmitted. Children 12 months and 18 months at a time of the inspection, Fortunately, are negative. But she still worried some, said to reporters: Bumang the business, then checked with his son.
After the age son, Gongpoquan took him to their place of residence, if the Philippine mind at ease, but the son of the missing has become particularly strong, business Bumang-run children to look at the past, but dare not hold his son, the pro-son, She would like to give her son a secure environment. But, ah son to his mother, watching other people's mothers holding the hands of baby son on her mother reach out to Latin America, said: I Haoxiang led by her mother's hand so that her mother kiss me. Tears in the eyes if the Philippines Lane Dazhuan, she secretly Zhuanguo Lian, Shiqu face the tears quietly, calmly Qianqi son to wear clothes in the arm, while his son does not want direct contact with the skin.
Children can not be separated from mother. If each left the Philippines, on the very'll son, Baba eyes pathetic to see her mother: Mom, I Guaiguai and obedient, not naughty, Buku, you took me to take good« I think my father and mother together . If the Philippines had a heart Qiangren cheated son: Mom and Dad to earn money to buy a house and then on to meet you, we can live together. Son shook his head: Mom, I do not want big houses, As long as my father and mother together. If the Philippines could hear the broken heart.
I will not hurt anybody,
Please do not walk away if the Philippines with relatives in the news spread, her parents, brothers and sisters are very concerned about her, some relatives showed clear discrimination, so that if the Philippines is very sad: Many relatives and I do not want to and from home, Some relatives also came to visit the elderly, I could feel that sense of isolation.
In her diagnosis of HIV infection after day, back to her home, her father took the exception of mosquitoes, Xiaodu Shui repeatedly in her Chuangxia, surrounded on mosquito nets and spraying, said fear of a mosquito bite she bite others, the others infected. If the Philippines to understand his father, but heart is very uncomfortable. HIV is not only the physical harm, but also isolate the family. If I have never felt such a kinship inverted nothing, but I feel that before me and my family is very close relationship, a long face will touch Doudou father, said one concern: your blood boil, drink Some Chinese herb tea bar, but now, no one dared to contact me, I even contacted the things other people can not access, this really is a discount profile ah!''
Once, in the home if the Philippines does not care Pengpo the skin, the words are Jijichazha people suddenly become a silence. If the Philippines is his sister used to Chuangke Tie, wound dressings good, and then came the water, rinse Zhanxue repeatedly on the ground, tables and chairs. In her doing so, no one to help, she does not want other people to help However, her heart is in terrible suffering. We should know that before, how they love each other, a family ah Qinmiwujian
Another time back home, people are hit with a 10-year-old Kou's cousin, if the Philippines to come up with the cousin, drink Pepsi, stopped by the Dagu: You cousin Buhe Pepsi. Appropriate Alienated from the Philippines to understand if, over the alienation so that if the Philippines was particularly chilling. Parents still hope she has time to look at home, alone if the Philippines is also eager to family, but I thought they might bring to the psychological pressure, she will go back to dispel the idea.
Good strong if the Philippines have always believed that the teachings of his father a child: to be a happy. She treated friends and relatives, neighbors You a very good, others need material assistance, she promised to all Excitement, some Laoxiang long way come to work, she selflessly to provide temporary accommodation. But in the face of HIV, this seemingly deep friendship can be an instant cold Rubing. In Residential Area, an original and her elderly live very good, warm day and shouted Tsai-mei, Tsai-mei But when her depressed mood to talk to the people, because the elderly have heard AIDS three Words and quickly walked away, leaving behind an awkward if not for a person to tears and lonely I just want to talk to her, I was uncomfortable Biemen ah! Before we are someone you love to talk, to speak with her when she and I maintain The distance, and no contact with her, but she do not even listen to hear, on the road after she met Duozhuo I go. If grievances to speak.
If the foot of the Philippine Heart straight Yang's door, a love of people speak the truth. But after infection, she found a head speak the truth of their own, away from the people, themselves, can not drive, they will find a variety of reasons Hill said on his recovery, patchy become a lie, people Only willing to accept, for if the hearts of the Philippines is very painful. She vocal Wu Yan said: In fact, I had this disease, will not hurt others, even if others have repeatedly hurt me.
Strong until the end of life
Others on the understanding, although so alienated that if the Philippines suffering wronged, the more their own grievances Hulihutu were infected this disease. Her husband is her first boyfriend, is the only one, she Meiyoushuguo blood, and no extra-marital sex, the virus is passed on her husband's foot. Can men in sexual has done wrong, love is often not recognized, the two couples often this argument. I know that he is definitely not deliberately transmitted to me, but how to do their own can Buren Zhang! I move Shuire who has been infected with the disease, Zaonie know that he is, he is not recognized. I am particularly infuriated him that. But also too that the mother-in-law also helping her husband said, I Qihuai, told Jiapo If such stresses, I will Gudaofayuan to, for the court to an idea and I am hate He, if this completely, I will certainly immediately divorce. Now, the only such will. I have too beautiful, too young, too healthy, but now I am full of blood and cells of the virus. If the Philippine Bianshuo Malei edge. Although think of themselves innocent, could not help and her husband quarrel, under a short breath in mind also tore up the record's condition for a long time, if the Philippines can now feel their husband or dependencies of each other: He has never been concerned about, but I do not He will Xuhanwennuan uncomfortable when he does not have such a Duochoushangan, think of me earn more money and children, his eyes closed so that when the peace of mind. Without a Kuxiao said to me, with little promise, they also Will be shed with a lifetime.
In fact, I know that he has pain Tomakomai, very sorry that we go all out to earn money, I care, care for children, he was in the make up for his sin. This… think, feel that he is also very poor and I were once home I would like to beating up her husband meal, I can not bear, and resolutely stopped them.
If the period of morbidity in the Philippines, the body is very fragile, cold, tuberculosis, diarrhea from time to time she put up a struggle. A little cold to live a month to heal the hospital, the home of the savings that will soon end consumption, and business is having trouble. Three years, the Chinese New Year when they can eat a little meat, usually if some pickles on the Philippines to Xiafan. The worst year is Spring Festival, only 25 home money. Fortunately, they both husband and wife have been free anti-virus treatment, which saved a lot of money for them, and also let them feel the warmth of the community.
If the Philippines because of the suffering of life has become increasingly strong. Confirmed the first year after infection, once Tuitong very powerful, she was panic that has come to the incidence period of their lives is coming to an end, Bian Kubian wrote a suicide note. But things have not as bad as expected, Tuitong disappeared after she was again the value of life. Once she and Fengzhu Ren said: I have to live up to his son married daughter-in-law, mother-in-law to be done, so she is.
In order to live long, healthy life as far as possible, some, her to go to the bookstores to buy books, self-study a number of medical knowledge, to find ways to improve the symptoms. She told me, diarrhea, the more He Xifan, can quickly relieve symptoms and reduce the oral infection, we must often mouthwash. If Yi Zike of the Philippine doctors are grateful, in her eyes, which is dozens of square meters of home. Everyone here is very good for her, she can relax and open their hearts. There is no discrimination, no curiosity, only Jiadeng. If the Philippines said that as long as here, she very happy. If the Philippines faces the first to emerge slightest mischievous: Even if I sat on the floor also be happy to.
Ability to return to the community
If the original in the Philippines do teachers in a school in Shenzhen, after marriage to resign and T to do business with the public, after many twists and turns before the middle gradually only on the right track. Last year, a number of losses, the beginning of this year to make money, and I well pleased. You Leqian the future, in addition to the part of children left behind, I will contributions to the community of people who suffer more.
At the end of talks, the reporters would like to send her to the station. She claws table and I have to separate it said. In a roadside lawn, she told reporters, before the mouth of the free treatment there are certain geographical restrictions, some of the floating population may be excluded, but these people simply can not afford the purchase of drug treatment, the difficult situation they may retaliate to the community, Exacerbate the spread of HIV, she recognized a girl is like this. If the enthusiasm the Philippines moved up again to reporters, perhaps this does not affect the status of an immediate change, but as journalists have a responsibility to the voices of HIV mother recorded.
17:00, we go all the way station, watching her on the car. This time I noted that the sky is completely Fang Qing, bright sun covered with earth.
